Tuesday, October 7, 2008

Well, it really seems that I can't catch a freakin' break. *sigh*

So, after my last post, everything went even more sideways. I woke up Friday morning to what I can only describe as a catastrophic decrease in milk supply. Utterly confused and frustrated, the boy and I fumbled through the weekend feeding and sleeping, feeding and sleeping, and me doing everything I could to boost my supply, including starting Fenugreek and Blessed Thistle in combination, and continuing my rigorous pumping schedule (man do I feel like a dairy cow!).

Monday morning, the reason for the decrease became glaringly obvious when I awoke with brutal menstrual cramps. Then a few hours later, cue one of the worst migraines I've had in ages. The good news is that my supply has rebounded quickly (it's too early for the herbs to be making much of a difference, so I don't think that they are the reason) now that I've actually started my period.

So, this morning we trotted off to the Health Unit (after a wonderfully relaxing Mom and Baby Yoga class) for a weigh in, but I knew it wasn't going to be the improvement I was hoping for given the weekend's issues.

LB gained 2 ounces in 5 days, which while low is still a heck of a lot better than a loss and not too too far off the mark considering how challenged my supply was this weekend (stupid hormones!).

So, the nurse took my feeding/peeing/pooping diary, and she's going to fax that off to my doctor along with their notes from my last two visits so that I won't have to go over it all again on Friday at LB's four month checkup. Hopefully, he will have started to gain better by Friday. If not, hopefully this doctor will listen to me and start looking for other reasons other than low supply.

In other news, I think LB might have a bit of a stomach bug, because over the weekend his poops turned from the lovely yellowish orange they usually are to this brown and green toxic sludge. I asked the nurse this morning if that might be due to my low supply over the weekend, and she felt it was more likely an intestinal bug. Hopefully that will clear up quickly as well!!!

I just really really want this all to be resolved. I'm so nervous all the time that there is something seriously wrong with LB. He's technically in the 'failure to thrive' category now, having dropped below the third percentile for weight and length.

Another poster on another blog (sorry that I can't remember who - I have a lot of blogs in my reader! - let me know if it was you or if you know who it was) asked recently if moms who have gone through IF worry more about their children than fertile moms, and having been on both sides I can say that we certainly do! I mean, I worried about M too, but it wasn't this same gut wrenching terror I feel every time something is not going well with LB. Everything feels much more precarious with him, for some reason.

Okay, he's going to be waking up for another feed soon, so I better end this here. Thanks for 'listening'!


  1. Well you, at your worst, still out dairy cow me!

    Not that that would be much consolation.

    btw- love the pic of you in your profile, so cute :)


  2. Sounds like things are looking up!