So, I told R how I was feeling about the fact that his brother and sister-in-law conceived so quickly.



His response? 'Well, she probably doesn't have screwed up cycles like you.'



Thanks dear. That makes me feel so much better.

Infertility Island from Barren Mare - Well worth reading!

We just got a text that DH's brother and his wife are expecting.

My initial reaction was to be super excited for them - and I am super excited for them. It's fantastic news.

But then I realized that they've only been trying for 3 months, and that stings a little.

I think I'm going to go drown my sorrows in a big bowl of ice cream.

Parts of this post had me laughing out loud in a public place. Which is unusual for me, because no matter how funny something is I try to avoid laughing in front of strangers due to my laugh sounding somewhat like a cross between the sound horses make when they are copulating, and the noise pigs make when they are eating. I couldn't help myself. You'll understand if you read it.

I had a follow up appointment with my doctor to go over some blood test results. Ironically, I ovulated - about a month earlier than usual... the same day I had the blood drawn.

CBC, TSH, and fasting glucose all came back within normal ranges. The prolactin, LH, and FSH didn't come back yet, so she's going to call me when they do. She thinks that we *might* not have to retest, because the surge happens the day before O and returns to normal within 24 hours, so I might have squeaked by. She sent me for a progesterone test today, to see if my post O levels are high enough, and she'll let me know how that one turned up at the same time as the other ones.

She's already talking about referring me to an ob/gyn (which is the highest you can go here without having to travel to the city), due to my ridiculously long cycles, so that's a good thing. She's just wanting to get more results to send with the referral, so that the ob/gyn and I don't have to start with a bunch of blood work.

DH came with me to my appointment today just for support, and she cornered him about getting an SA done, so he's going to do that sometime this week.

Moving right along! Yay!

Nat posted about un-medicated births over at :: Relaxing Doesn't Make Babies :: which inspired this post.

Now, anyone that knows me in real life knows that I am a total wuss. Seriously. I mean, I get a paper cut at work and consider taking the rest of the day off to recover.

But when it came to the birth of my daughter, I was determined that I was going to go un-medicated. I educated myself on mental techniques for dealing with pain, I practiced my breathing and visualizations, and most importantly I put exactly what I wanted into my birth plan, so that everyone in the room knew what I wanted them to do if I did end up asking for drugs (which was to distract me, unless I asked three times). I don't think anyone really believed I could do it, but they all agreed to do their part to help me try.

For the record, my plan worked fabulously, and M was born after 11 hours of un-medicated labour. Everyone told me how "proud" they were of me, but their praise didn't matter - I was proud of myself.

So, I had my first doctor's appointment regarding my cycles. I've been going over my charts and a doing a lot of reading, and I think we might be facing PCOS or a thyroid disorder. So off to the doctor I went, charts in hand.

She agreed with me that there are signs of PCOS, so I went in for a slew of bloodwork yesterday. I have to call her office to book an appointment for next week to go over the results.

Progress. It feels good. But I also feel like I no longer have control over this process, which is a little unnerving.

Meme started by Chilihead:

Here's how it works: Go to Google, type in "[your name] needs" and see what comes up.

Chili needs extra heat - absolutely! I've been so ridiculously cold all the time lately!

Chili needs to be prepared - for my doctor's appointment next Monday? Working on it! Gotta print off all of my charts, finish writing up the important things to remember about my symptoms so I don't forget, finish writing up my pros/cons about the different treatment options I might be facing.

Chili needs time to blend - hmmm... I think I'll have to come back to this one...

Chili needs lots of chili powder - true that! Good thing we're having vegetarian chili for dinner tonight!

Chili needs to get his(her) head out of his(her) butt - Huh. I didn't realize I had my head in my butt, but maybe that's normal. ;)

Alright, so this blog is already off to a slow start.

I created it a few nights ago, with the intention of spending the weekend writing out our story so far. But even though I know where the story starts (10 months ago, give or take a few years of health problems leading up to that point), I don't know how to start telling it.

However, I'm my only reader so far, so at least I'm only letting myself down!